When I returned home from Brooklyn after visiting my daughter for two weeks, I noticed Ebony had lost weight. Well, she’d always been a little chubby, so I figured now that I was back, she’d start eating again. And she did eat.
However, 72 hours later, at night, she had trouble swallowing and her tongue was hanging out of her mouth. I thought it was an abscessed tooth. I told her how sorry I was she was in discomfort…to hang on until the next morning when I’d take her to the vet and they’d pull the tooth.
Dr. Rose did a physical exam and said it wasn’t a tooth. She only had to take one ex-ray. A huge tumor pressed on Ebony’s stomach, liver, and kidneys. She had trouble eating because there was swelling in the back of her throat. The vet said Ebony would not survive this, so there was only one choice. I had to put her down. I hugged her, kissed her, and stayed with her to the end. Dr. Rose always sings at the very end. She sang, “Twinkle Twinkle Little Star” for Ebony.
That song was so appropriate for Ebony. She was sweet, as gentle as a whisper, and affectionate. She had particularly taken to my author friend when Jenna Victoria visited a few months ago. I’m so blessed that Jenna got to know Ebony. She was a dear pet….the epitome of the phrase: on cats’ paws.
After I left the vet’s office, I confronted myself acting as my own accuser. If only…Maybe if I had come back from New York City earlier. Guilt. I should never have misjudged Ebony’s illness and lack of appetite as being caused by missing me. Self-condemnation. After all, I was the one who said ‘yes’ to euthanasia. Judgement. Many people do this. Men feel they should be able to fix all things that aren’t working right. Women feel they should be able to comfort, bolster up, even resuscitate (emotionally and physically) those they love. This certainly includes a beloved pet.
Romans 8:1 [NASB] ~ Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.
If there was something we could’ve done better, and there usualy is…we can learn from it for the next situation. In this case, as believers, we must submit to God, repent, accept His forgiveness and grace…walk on and sin no more. Whenever we find ourselves nursing guilt, we must submit to God and push it away. If there was nothing or very little we could’ve done better, again, we must submit to God, and push the truly useless condemnation away. This takes making a quality decision on our parts. The accusation is of the enemy. We must move past it and move on to what God has for us…follow the path He’s set before us.
I have several cuts on my arms .
If I wasn’t most definitely in my prime, some might speculate age 39 (ooops my nose is growing) ~ though a lady never should tell her age… At any rate, if I wasn’t well beyond my teenage years, one look at my armss and some might think I was an adolescent cutter. Not so! Not at all.
I have a feral cat named Mimzie and was merely trying to clean her ears. [Shh, don’t tell her I said so, but feral cats are somewhat deranged.]
The upshot is, she got away without me achieving my goal. So, I tired to sneak up on her the next day. She’s partially deaf, which makes the sneaking up not too difficult, but she’s quick and determined not to be held onto.
You’ll notice her crooked lip-line. That’s due to lost teeth. However, what teeth she’s got left sunk into my arm, fortunately, not too deeply.
This soon became a two-woman operation. I enlisted the help of my daughter Delayne, and we had to block the staircase so Mimsie couldn’t get up there to hide.
I can’t help but be reminded of that old meme, “How To Give A Cat A Pill.” Ah, the joys of cat ownership. I promise you, she’s not choking the cat, just trying to hold onto her.
For those of you who would like to lead “cruelty-free” lives (meaning you purchase products that do not test on animals, here’s a short and very incomplete list of affordable companies who sell in drug stores and supermarkets, and do not test on animals.
Cosmetics and Personal Care:
Aveda [Estee Lauder]
Caswell-Massey: fragrance, bath & body – can be purchased on Amazon
Elf Cosmetics: Target, most chain drug stores
Kiss My Face: skin care – in most chain drug stores and supermarkets
Milani Cosmetics: sold in most chain drug stores
Paul Mitchell Hair Products: most chain drug stores and beauty supply stores
Physicians Formula: make up – sold in most chain drug stores
Queen Helene: hair products, skin care, personal care – sold in most chain drug stores and supermarkets
Shiff: vitamins, in most chain drug stores and supermarkets
Toms of Maine: toothpaste – in most chain drug stores and supermarkets
Wet ‘n Wild: cosmetics, nail products – in most chain stores and supermarkets
White Rain: hair products, in most chain drug stores and supermarkets
Bon Ami: scouring cleanser, sold in supermarkets
Brillo: scouring pad, sold in supermarkets
Nature’s Miracle: pet odor destroyer, PETCO, most pet shops
Most of these products are “made in America” and do not have ingredients that will cause cancer, or cause other physical harm. Why do you suppose the other companies test on animals? It’s because they’re using potentially harmful chemicals.
Note: the box must say “cruelty-free” “no animal testing” or have a bunny on it. Most of the companies who a few years ago didn’t test on animals have gone back to testing. Why? Because China requires animal testing to sell in their country and these companies quickly gave up their principles. You’ll notice that most celebrities no longer do “cruelty free” ads. That’s because they’re signed with large cosmetics firms that have gone back to testing. How quickly they too gave up their principles.
My faithful BFF, Sophie (the 11 pound fluff-ball) and I spent three days in the wilds of Dutchess County (NY) braving frigid temperature. We did survive!!!
We went to visit the farm where my brother’s wife boards her horse Misty…and we had a great time.
My brother’s wife Laura with her horse Misty and little Sophie.
On another part of the farm, my brother Michael cuts firewood for his wood stove. I can attest, that stove gets mighty toasty.
All the while, I filed everything away in my ‘writer’s research files’ for a time when I could draw on this experience to enhance a story.